today was a special day.

because i had my last lecture.

and i did my last clapping.

now, i'm left with three finalz to kill.

then, it's reallie reallie over.

but, i realized there's no point to stress myself.

so, i'm just going to give my best.

my medical micro professor is a very interesting person.  He always plays a classical music before the class and shows slide of joke/quote/poem after our 5min break.  Today, he shared a poem by Mother Teresa.  I read a book composed of her poems long time ago.... but i guess i kinda forgot about it...  but today, i was reminded again what a beautiful person she was.  i admire her unconditional love, never-ending compassion, true humbleness, full dedication... and most of all i admire her strong faith...

"Do It Anyway"

People are often unreasonable,
illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,
people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful,
you will win some false friends and true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest anyway.

What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,
it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway.


Mother Teresa

i want to be a beautiful person too.

i kinda told myself not to "waste" time doing things like UPDATING THE XANGA but what can i say... i'm studying for the midterms and becoming xanga-whore is just a ritual... keke.

i guess i'm pressured more this quarter since it's going to be my LAST quarter... last quarter as an undergrad... well, that is IF i don't fail any class... yeah, it's official that i'm leaving earlier than i was planning... i'm happy and sad at the same time... i can't believe how fast 4yrs have passed  by... it's funny how i'm leaving when i'm finally loving SD...

i think this entry's going to be very very random... it's late, i'm tired.. and im babbling... hmm... i don't know wat i did but january's gone... wtf.  i guess i was bz trying to finalize everything... now, i'm alittle relaxed and can focus more...  classes are fun... cute TAs are pluses ^^... going to prof's office hours these days... it's pretty interesting meeting them outside the class... yes, i'm a nerd.  but i'm a happy nerd. keke 

so i guess i STILL don't look like my age... i met couple of my roomate's friends the other day... and they thought i was a freshman... yeah, at first, i was treated like the "dongseng"... but then they eventually found out that i was a senior... and they started calling me "unni"... that was interesting.

finally watched The Notebook.

i have to agree that it's a beautiful movie.  but did i cry? no...  i think i have this thing about "painful" love.  i don't like it.  i never understood why pursuing for the true love brings so much pain and struggle.  does love come at a price?  is there really no "live happily ever after"?  i mean, when two people really love each other, will everything be perfect?  when will the reality hit?... does it ever hit?... if you realize things as time passes by, does that mean the love was a "temporary" feeling?...  my friend told me that the reason i can't understand is because i never have "loved" anyone... and i wouldn't know until i do... i agree. i don't know how it would feel like to give up/sacrifice everything for that one person. 

my question then is, "would i want one?"

.  .  .

maybe... eventually?  or never?  for now, i actually don't know... and i'm not going to try to find the answer for this one... just going to leave it as a question mark for now.

somewhat related to this... went to Rock Church for the past few weeks... one sunday, pastor said something that got my attention... he said how God is the only one that can complete each person... he also mentioned the importance of establishing a strong relationship with God before pursuing any kind of relationships.  it's true.  i often tried to find someone that would "complete" me...  but in the end, it didn't work and the only thing that was left for me to feel was sadness and disappointment... i should have known that one incomplete person can NOT complete another incomplete person...  it's something so simple but often easy to forget... 

on a lighter note... since february is month of L.O.V.E, and knowing how "good" i am in updating here... i'll just wish early happy valentines day~ 

anyone down for some jja-jjang-myun?

i have so much to be thankful these days...

new year, new entry, new background, new pic... oo, by the way, <--the only time i sang without getting drunk^^.  it was fun norebang-ing... haven't done it for awhile. 

"late" Happy New Year~  2oO6 is already gone... it was defnitely one of the memorable years... experienced different things, learned alot,  and got to grow up alittle bit... fulfilled my 2oO6 resolution... hmm, for 2oO7... i haven't made up a new year's resolution yet, but i have one thing i want to accomplish... i'm gonna try to read thru the whole Bible... check up on me so i don't get lazy about it ^^.  i think 2oO7 is going to be a great year. 

back at skoo... nothing new i guess... just trying to figure out some things... debating between graduating alittle early or staying the whole year... i think senioritis is kicking in alittle bit... need to get back to my study mode again...

sometimes, i don't like being given "choices"...  til now, i basically took classes cuz they were required somehow... but for this quarter, i just had to take any bio classes... so after looking at several classes, i couldn't decide... kinda wanted to take something interesting... so i went to all 6choices in one day... it was straight  8hrs of sitting+listening to prof talking... by the end of it, i was pretty tired but it wasn't that bad at all... got to meet some interesting professors... narrowed down to 3... we'll see if i made the "right" choices.

it's winter and i simply don't like it.  it's too cold and it gets so dark too fast... well, at least it's not raining...  but still, cold weather sux.  winter really sux.  these days, before i leave the house, i put on so many layers of clothes that i feel like a big marshmellow keke...  i don't know what i would do without my neh-bop^^.  for some reason, 조금은 쓸쓸해... i'm blaming the winter.

read this somewhere... this doesn't "make sense" in a christian point of view but i thought it was touching... there are two ways you can go to heaven:  you can go to heaven 1]if you have cried for 100 people OR 2]if 100 people have cried for you.  at first, it sounded simple,  but after thinking about it... it wasn't an easy thing to do...  come to think of it, i don't remember the last time i actually cried for someone's pain... yeah, it's easy to say the appropriate things like "i'm sorry to hear that..." or "let me know if you need anything..."  but actually sitting down and really care to the point that you actually cry?  made me realize how much i have to work on myself...

was checking out some stuff in Youtube and found this... i thought it was cute. 

hello~ i'm at the chemosensory lab right now... came in the morning...ran a couple of subjects for the experiment... and now i'm waiting for my professor to come back... it's techincally my "last" day in the lab... i don't know if i'm gonna continue for another quarter... i mean, i like working here.. staffs are nice, the labwork is fun... and i even get my own room+computer... but i dont noe..realized i "overloaded" myself this quarter... well, we'll see after i have a "talk" with the professor...  so, the project i'm currently working on is sponsored by a company that makes chemical products we use daily at home... the company wanted to investigate which smell(of the chemical) is "least irritating" and "most enjoyable" to decide which chemicals to use in developing their products... so, next time u buy an airfreshner or a cleaning supply, "my" work/research may have played a role in making the product... how cool is that?

it's really over.  last day of the finalz week... finished well yesterday morning... this finalz week wasn't bad at all... i started early, had good gaps inbetween the classes... so hopefully the results are good... i can't believe one quarter is already over... only two more left and im out... scary.  i had a lunch with my mentor the other day and he recommended me to work at a lab(either at ucla or usc) during my time of "year-off"... if the research lab goes well, i'm thinking of working longer and apply to optometry skoo alittle later... i took a microbiology lab as my upperdiv bio and i reallie reallie enjoyed it... i got to work with various samples to find/culture/identify several bacteria... if i end up working in the lab permanently, i want to work in developing antibiotics/antiseptics... i know it would take lots of work but i think it would be very fulfilling... i realized that i dont want to work just to make money... i want my job to be challenging and be able to somehow "benefit" others... i mean being an optometrist will be nice since i will be helping with ppl's vision but i think it might be alitte too "mundane" and "simple"... funny that this is coming from me who always wanted a "simple" life... well, it was just a random thought that was in my head for the past couple of days... newho.

oo, so during the thankxgiving break... i ended up not cooking from scratch but i was in charge for the family's dinner~ my mom got the "premade" set but i did all the "cooking=reheating+adding extra ingredients+baking) and plate settings... the turkey still took nearly 3hrs even though it was already-cooked... it was fun playing around in the kitchen as if i knew wat i was doing... keke.  my dad who doesn't reallie like thankxgiving meal actually really enjoyed it.  so i think my mission was accomplished.  

going to Michael's later to see what winter project i'm gonna do for this year... i made scarfs, did cross stiching for the previous years... maybe croscheting?  well, i guess i'll find my "inspiration" in there... keke  my prof. is here... so gotta go... hope everyone has a good weekend!!!

Thanksgiving is around the corner... This year, I kinda wanted to prepare a traditional Thanksgiving dinner on my own instead of ordering/going out to eat... so looked up all over the internet for recipes... kinda overwhelmed though... since i don't cook and i don't think my "first-attemp-to cook" shouldn't be a thanksgiving dinner keke... ooo, and there are so many recipes that i want to try but can't decide which ones... aigo, i guess i'm stressing for no reason... i still have like a day or two to decide. If i do cook this year, i think it's going to be a lot of fun & definitely going under my "Try 50 New Things"list (my 2006 new years resolution)... if not, well, there's always next year

Currently, i'm doing SEX and the CITY marathon... i can't stop watching it... I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH! got the all seasons and started watching them this weekend... three seasons down and three more to go. Even though i'm not over thirty, don't live in NY, don't sleep with all the guys i meet... somehow, i can relate to what they are saying and what they are going through... i think i'm Charlotte most of the time... it would be perfect if you mix Mr. Big, Aiden, and Trey all together to make ONE guy keke...

My mommy's starting a new bee-z-ness and i wanted to do something for her... so decided to make some poster/pamphlet... spent most of my weekend researching and designing... i haven't worked on any art project since forever, so it was more work than i expected... and since everything had to be "perfect", i made lots and lots of templates... well, i'm finally done and i hope my mommy likes it

*randomness*  i can't eat pork anymore... I think i somehow developed allergic reaction this year... i had food poison when i was really little but i was fine upto now...so, i don't know wat happend... i guess my body is going thru some changes... so, no more sam-gyup-sal with soju, no more kimchi jiggae with sam-gyup-sal,  and no more bo-sam... hmph !

Thanksgiving break is this week, yayee! all the ppl i know are leaving TOMORROW for the break... but lucky me have to stay 'til WED cuz my lab is mandatory... o wells, i guess i'll just finish all my work and play when i go home~ o by the way, anyone up for "after-thanksgiving" sale shopping?

NEWHO, more of Sex and the City for me.... g'nite!